Better Than Ever
I’m back and better than ever!
Earlier this year in March, I posted a blog article entitled “Take a Moment to Breathe and Heal,” where I explained that I was taking a break from my blog and podcast due to health reasons. At the time, if I’m being honest, just the thought of talking about what I was going through would bring tears to my eyes. However, I am at a much better place, and getting stronger and better every day.
Earlier this year, I receive a phone call and heard five words that no one wants to hear. “The biopsy revealed cancer cells.” Those five words sucked the air from my lungs. The big “C” had officially entered the building. I imagined the doctor saying that my biopsy was fine and that any findings were benign. But as it would happen, life had other plans. My head was in a fog, and my heart was racing. So many thoughts came to my mind, and unfortunately, it went to the worse-case scenario immediately because humans, right? We tend to think the worse which only leads to more anxiety.
Towards the end of the phone call, I was able to pull myself together enough momentarily to ask a question or two, but once I hung up, I cried. I screamed. I cried some more. I was devastated. It was not what I wanted to hear. Well, to be fair, it’s never what anyone wants to hear.
I remember sitting and staring into nothing. Was this really happening? Not only was it happening, but it was happening fast. There was so much that I had planned for 2024, only to have it derailed like this. This was not only a huge curveball, but a bulldozer! Over the next several months, I had more doctor appointments than I’ve had my entire life. My poor arms were so tired from all of the bloodwork. It truly was a whirlwind. Turned out to be triple negative stage 1b breast cancer and it was aggressive.
Over the next several months, my body changed in ways that I would have never imagined. I lost weight, lost my hair, and at times, lost my light. But every day, no matter how hard it was, I spoke positivity over myself. My skin changed, I started having hot flashes, became dizzy and nauseous at random times, not to mention that time I randomly passed out in the supermarket. Talk about scary.
But ultimately, I pushed through. Pushed through the multiple chemotherapy treatments, hydration treatments and so on. During this time, I still worked fulltime, but I am so grateful that I was permitted to work from home as often as necessary.
Ultimately, this was just a bump in the road, and I am now cancer free! I am a SURVIVOR!! While I have another surgery in my future, I am more than excited about what the future holds. I have even started to notice a few specks of hair gracing my head once again. In the end, I know that I am strong. I am resilient. I am divine. I am healthy. And so are you. Please know that whatever you are going through will not last always. It is only a temporary speedbump in the game of life. Keep pushing and moving forward. I know I am.
